sorry but i cant move on.

i was never able to cry on demand.  now it seems like every second i take a look at our old messages pictures, or get the slightest smell that remind me of you , tears just come rushing out of my face like a unstopable river. I said I was over you , I was done and we were never getting back together. Today I saw you . Today I talked to you face to face , and realized i made the biggest mistake of my life so far. You dont want me though , youve been caught up in your own life and have told me theres no more room . Im not too sure what to do now. Do I lay awake crying until i pass out from exaustion, or do i carry on with my life and pretend like im okay with everything else ive had to deal with.  To be honest i wanna run away , and never have to look at your face or hear your voice again , never brush up againts you and feel the tingle you used to send through my body. writing this brought tears to my eyes. Your gone its okai i understand , wait that was a lie . i dont understand . i dont get how you can throw away a year of us . i miss you thats all.